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Friday, September 30, 2011

GORGEOUS

I'm a terrible person. I know. Commitment has always been one of my crux's. Whether it be with women, working, or blogging, I can never commit. I am human. I am a machine. I might have A.D.D. I might just not care enough. I don't know.
I'm not sure how long this will last, but I will be making a conscience effort to start posting again because something wonderful happened to me. I can't quite explain it just yet. However, I will say that I have been inspired to create. Pure inspiration. My friend and I refer to it as "the creative mode". The creative mode is a state that must be tapped into before it passes. Like a tide, creativity ebbs and flows. Therefore I will be writing as much as possible until the feeling passes. I want to create things. Wonderful things.

"If you can't live, you dying."
-Raekwon

How many of us are alive? What does it mean to feel life?
I was standing at the edge of an escarpment. As I peered down from the precipice, I could see it all. The country side, the rural roads, the coniferous trees. I felt something creep over my body. A tingling sensation. Like a million little ants crawling over me or the aftermath of a meth binge. Looking up into the sky, vultures circled. That feeling, I can only describe as being alive. To me, that is life.